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Sunday

I posted yesterday (Monday) about my move and how it’s going.

This past Sunday I chose not to go to church for two reasons: 1) I was worried about my car and 2) I was sick. My lovely sister helped me to move on Sunday and she gave me whatever sickness she had that day. This sickness has stuck with me but I’m taking lots of C and sleeping a lot and taking a decongestant in order to get over whatever this is, because my unemployment ends tomorrow. Yay!

Anyway, Sunday I didn’t go to church but I wanted to read some scripture so I would stay grounded for the day and the week.

See I know several things about myself: 1) I have a tendency to be independent in everything and go into myself, 2) if I don’t get to know people soon I will begin to think that I don’t need people, even though I know I need them. 3) I need to be in the Word to get through tough times, and what’s tougher than moving again.

So I picked up my Grandmother’s Bible and began the search for the piece of scripture I knew I needed. I was feeling off because of my encounter with my landlord (that is continuing to eat at me) and my car and this sickness that is hanging on a bit too long for my liking.

When my parents and sister left on Saturday, I was sad. I was sad to be left here alone but I knew God wanted me here. God wants me in this town, in this job for a reason and I am totally leaning on him to sustain me and to show me why here.

So I went looking for my favorite piece of scripture, my favorite piece that reminds me that God is my strength and that I can lean on him when I am troubled. The problem was, I wasn’t sure where it is.

I know what you’re thinking, “You went to Seminary, shouldn’t you know where all the verses are?” I know I should but I’ve never been someone who is awesome at memorization and I often find myself lost in the scriptures. I know where they exist and I know the general location but the actual location is lost on me.

So I knew Paul wrote my favorite verse but I wasn’t sure which book to begin in.  So I started in Philippians and luckily I was right.

My favorite verse is Phil 4:13. Once I found the verse I went seeking for my favorite translation. My Grandmother’s Bible is the New Living Translation but it’s not my fav: “For I can do everything  through Christ, who gives me strength.”

Then I went looking in the New International Version : “I can do all this through Christ who gives me strength.” Again not my favorite.

Then I went looking in the New Revised Standard Version: “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” I know it doesn’t seem like a huge difference but I prefer this translation.

“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” He gives me strength and because of that I can do whatever it is he wants me to do.

it was a good day. Today has been another day of rest with a scatchy throat but I’m hoping a restful evening will help me to feel better tomorrow.

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Today’s applications/ resumes

Just for fun today I thought I would post about the resumes and cover letters I sent out today and the ones I didn’t. In my times of unemployment I feel like the most asked question is, “What are you applying for?” To which I often respond, “What am I not applying for?”

Truth be told, I’ll apply to almost anything, even if I’m not qualified. To these in my cover letter I explain why I’m applying even though I do not meet their qualifications. I lay down my passion and my other qualifications and how they would assist me in the position and I beg them (that might be a little strong but you get the idea) to please consider me for this position. To look beyond my un-qualification and see that I might just be the person they are looking for.

The first job I applied for today is with Community Linc. It’s a job in fundraising and research and would have a good deal to with writing and anyone that knows me, knows that I love to write.

The jobs I don’t apply for are the ones that I really don’t meet their qualifications and there is no way to get around them. For instance there was a transitional coach position open today but you need to have a social work degree (and there’s no give, sometimes there is give and they list other degrees they are willing to accept) and you need to have a license in social work. Those two things I do not have. But if you do you might check out this job opportunity on the nonprofit connect page: http://www.npconnect.org/jobs?cl_v=ra&cl_aid=831387

I also don’t apply for jobs that are offering pay way below what I want. For instance, there’s a job today: Youth Volunteer Team Leader but it is only providing a stipend and that stipend is way below the poverty line. It’s also a full time job with flexible not set hours so it would not lend itself to having another job with it. I apply to full time and part time gigs in the hopes that even if I get a part time gig I can get another part time with it and hopefully make enough to stay afloat. But below the poverty line, full time with flexible hours is not conducive to working another job to get above the poverty line, so I passed on this one too.

I get daily emails from CareerBulider, Monster.com, Indeed.com, and Nonprofit Connect. Nonprofit Connect usually has stuff I want to apply for each day but the rest are usually way off the mark. The kind of job stuff they send me is complete crap and no where near what I want to be doing. It’s very annoying to open their emails because it feels like a waste of time but every once in a while there will be one job that might be worth my time so I continue every day to open the millions of emails I get in the hopes that there might be one job opportunity on the page that I might want.

Here is another social work ad for today, again I don’t qualify but maybe you do: http://www.npconnect.org/jobs?cl_v=ra&cl_aid=831379

The last thing I applied for today was an Outreach and Enrollment Coordinator with Swope Community Health Care. It’s the last thing I applied for today because it took me an entire hour to fill out. Long applications really take it out of me but obviously I thought this one was worth it.

And that’s today’s applications and resumes. I spent about 2 and a half hours today working on this stuff. It’s enough to keep me energized and continue to work the next day but not too much that I feel depressed and want to quit searching.

Gerbera Daisy

Gerbera Daisy

The Third Day

My church recently finished a study by John Ortberg, Who is this Man?: The Unpredictable Impact of the Inescapable Jesus. The last week of the study was to talk about Saturday of Holy Week. We often talk a lot about Good Friday and Resurrection Sunday but we often spend little time considering Silent Saturday.

We are so excited about the awesome news of Sunday that we bypass the sadness and anguish of Saturday. I thought this was really poignant in my own life right now. I’m in my Saturday and have been for quite a few months, 4 I think. I got a rejection letter this past week that literally excited me. They let me know how great my experience is and how awesome my resume was but they went with someone else. I was excited to recieve news even though the answer was a resounding, “no.” I’ve had silence and no news for 4 long months, so long that sometimes it feels like 5. I’ve read 47 books in that amount of time and watched too many TV series and knitted the beginnings of a lot of blankets. My Saturday is filled with moments of silence and moments of crying out and moments of fear. My Saturday is the Silent Saturday and all the anguish that goes a long with that.

Being fired was my Friday. My Saturday has been all this time of trying to find something and I am on my knees praying that my Sunday will come, that I will be lifted from the pain and be welcomed back into the work force.

We all have these times in our lives where something happens or the absence of something is our Friday-Sunday. Don’t dismiss the importance of your Saturday because Silent Saturday makes us even more excited for Resurrection Sunday.

What are you third day stories? Did your Sunday come quick or will it be a long hard battle to see your Sunday?

Comment below if you would like to share your third day stories with me.

The Awesomeness of Shelters

In the past few months, of searching for jobs I have viewed many, many websites and job descriptions. Some of the most straight forward job descriptions have come from coalitions. Did you know that each state and sometimes several cities within a state have Coalitions for Domestic and Sexual Abuse? I didn’t, not until a few days ago.

So I started searching their websites and found more job openings I didn’t know existed and guess what…..I’m actually qualified for these jobs and I get a little excited when I see that they have openings. I even applied for one in Juneau, Alaska. Crazy but if I was doing the work I was born to do I’m not sure I would care so much about the weather, don’t get my wrong I would still complain but bring it on. I want to do this work!

 I’ve also noticed how awesome shelters are, especially their websites. When you visit a Domestic and Sexual Abuse shelter’s website you automatically get shown some EXIT signs (quick buttons that will get you off the page immediately, in case the one who is abusing you enters the room), as well as some information about how to delete your tracks while  you are online (just in case the person who is abusing you, is also controlling your computer use, which he/she probably is). 

It’s so awesome that I am getting more excited to get back to doing what I love: helping those that are being abuse and have gotten out. 

I hope this new kick keeps going until I get a job. I wouldn’t say that I’ve been depressed during this season, it’s more like I’ve lost motivation and drive. I mean I get up every day, search the local sites and then send resumes and cover letters. It’s hard when you don’t hear anything for months on end, but hopefully this new passion will keep me going a while longer.

Bored Times in Unemployment

I’ve been unemployed for so long, so long I don’t want to think about how long it has been.
I have been able to keep myself busy.

I have read lots of books and seen lots of TV shows.

I have painted:

Exodus 3 painting

 

 

 

 

 

I have knitted:

One of the blankets I'm knitting for friends who hare having babies

One of the blankets I’m knitting for friends who hare having babies

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I’ve also made lots of treats:

This bread is so good!!! It's mom and dad approved and totally gluten free.

This bread is so good!!! It’s mom and dad approved and totally gluten free.

I got this recipe from “You Made That?” The hardest part was zesting the lemon and trying to read the recipe on my phone 🙂

 

 

 

 

 

 

These are pretty good but they needed more salt

These are pretty good but they needed more salt

For this recipe I only used salt and oil because I wasn’t sure I would like all the other stuff they wanted me to add 🙂

This recipe was originally posted on “The Lemon Bowl”

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lemon infused citrus herbal tea

Lemon infused citrus herbal tea

This is actually a favorite of mine that I put into use after having fruit infused water at a hotel. You take your favorite fruit tea, say citrus herbal and then add your favorite fruit or a fruit that will increase the flavor. My absolute favorite is peach tea with real peaches in it.

You leave the fruit in the tea and then a couple days later eat the actual fruit. It’s awesome!!

 

 

 

 

 

Yogurt Covered Blueberries

These are super easy but it’s best if you actually have toothpicks to use.

This is another recipe that is super easy. I got this one from “The Caffeinated Chronicles of a Supermom”

She called for honey yogurt but I used vanilla. They are pretty great but they can hurt your teeth so try to give about a minute to let come to room temperature but don’t take too long because they will go back to being yogurt like.

I have also been going crazy on Pinterest. I have pinned like crazy!

In addition I have also been searching for jobs daily. I’m hoping I get a job soon so I can get on with my life instead of feeling stuck.

I miss academia

I was an academic for the last 5 years and I find that since I left it I miss it. I don’t miss the deadlines and the endless reading and writing. What I miss instead is the challenge.

I miss someone (or several someones) pushing me to greatness. Sure I had to read a lot of books that were pure crap but some of those books were great. Some of them (even the crap ones) led me to think. They kept me on my toes and pushed me to think even more.

I find myself hanging back on the sidelines these days and miss being immersed in theology and the Bible and the dripping disdain of people who thought differently than I. I miss being so focused on a particular Scripture, idea or concept that I could spell it out in many different ways and have people listening to what I had to say because it might be different than what they could comprehend.

I miss not the attention but the ability to freely and frequently share my ideas and listen to others to hopefully come to an agreeable new idea or a fresh way to look at something.

I miss arguing with people. I miss being immersed in something and pushing myself to greatness. 

I miss academia, especially now when I have hours to myself and I wonder how to fill it. I miss it all and I find myself waiting with baited breath for someone to ask me a question where I might be able to share some of the wisdom I have gained.

Just last week someone came up to me and asked me how to help their friend get out of an abusive relationship and I have to say that those few minutes where I got to share my knowledge were some of my happiest in the last few months.

I cannot wait to do this work and I am getting antsy waiting for something to happen.

I awake every day and think, “Is it worth getting up today?” I look at the clock and usually see that it is some time after 8am and I usually tell myself, “If you get up now what are you going to do the rest of the day?” My day is filled with TV and reading and searching online for jobs. I usually apply for as many as I can and then spend the rest of my day watching TV and reading. I feel such a waste. Not that I am wasting time or wasting whatever but that my presence is a waste.

My therapist, in Pasadena, before I left told me that it was okay for me to take up space and everyday I try to remind myself of this fact. It’s okay for me to take up space and I try to tell myself that I am not a waste but there are moments where it feels that way.

When I was immersed in classes and classwork my focus was on learning and getting as much knowledge as possible to do the best job I could when I left and now that I am out I cannot wait to use that knowledge.

How much longer do you think I will have to wait? Image 

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