Did I do the right thing?

Today I had a phone conversation with a mother for a nanny job I was looking at. We had a nice conversation and she complimented me on my resume. She asked me why I was considering a nanny job when my resume was so extensive and good. I said that I was looking to build up my non-profit resume and was considering working several part time jobs and volunteering on the side to build up that resume (which is something I have considered doing).

Then she asked me what I hoped and prayed she would not ask me. She asked me how long I was planning on being a nanny. She asked me if this was a short term or long term solution.

I was geared up, ready to tell a lie but then she said that she was looking for someone who was long term because she wanted someone consistent for her son. I wanted to lie. I wanted to say my life long goal was to be a nanny.

But I didn’t. I told her the truth. I said that it was a short term solution and she told me to keep in contact with her and tell her if things changed.

Did I do the right thing? Or did I just shoot myself in the foot?

Should I have lied? Would that have been the right thing? It feels like that would have been the wrong thing to do but it would have given me a paycheck for a short period of time and then she would have had to find someone else.

I guess what I’m saying is that my caring heart, the caring heart that has called me to care for women who have been sexually abused would not allow me to lie. It wouldn’t have been the right thing for me but the devil side of me says I should have lied.

The truth of the matter is that I can’t be someone I’m not and let’s say I got the job and needed her for a reference down the line. Would she have been willing to give me that reference if I lied to her? I’m guessing not.

I guess the thing about this awful process of trying to find a job is balancing the need for employment and the need to still be me. I can’t be someone I’m not and I wouldn’t want to work for someone who would hire the liar in me.

So I think I did the right thing by telling the truth and I just have to hope that God has bigger plans for me and this decision doesn’t come to bite me in the rear later on.


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